Tuesday, January 8, 2008

New Year 2008



It has been so long that i havent logged in. So many things had happened. God is really mighty.


Oh yeah, I went to court on Dec 26, 2007 to attend my case on drug abuse.


It is seem that be honest is not a good way in leading our life...




I plead guilty on a charge made against me.... Guess what...


Court had order me to pay a RM 2,500 ....




somehow, for 1st timer.... who has a such record (criminal record) .... i strongly believe that it is too much... why? just imagize when our brother or friend who dont really has a proper job... RM 2,500 is really lots!!




Does Malaysia Court or practise actually against human right???


YES!!


I was in the prison for almost 5 hour awhile waiting for the fine to be paid... Can we as malaysian would be believe that


1) NO WATER (drinking water) served for that period of 5 hours


2) NO TOILET (proper toilet)


3) DIRTY (in term of healthy) coz 13 people inside with different background.... thus, chances for us to get any dieases are very high






Somehow, that was a great pre new year gift for me....


Malaysia is developing country.... i strongly believe that... as one of the tax payer.... malaysia government should improve so called human right rather than wasting money on other thing




After those inccident, called once in my mind that...


why i am so patriotict.... i should have give up my citizenship long time ago....




Maybe... when something worse happened... there is always a happiness coming


Thursday, October 11, 2007


Dang Wangi Police Station

Today I am in KL..
Been in Dang Wangi Police Station to report myself..
Oh yeah, I think I should share this story ...
1.30am on 22 September 2007, I was partying in one of the club at Jalan Pinang, Kuala Lumpur
I was having fun with my friends ... we all drinking all night long and of course with some illegal substances or to be more accurate - we took estacy...
Police came and raid the club and of course.. we were inside..
Funny thing that i was not feel afraid or scare.. Maybe, i should give credit to my parent who teachs me "Berani kerana Benar, Takut kerana Salah". This proverb means.. if i do something wrong and i aware of it impact to myself, i should be brave to admit it and face it...
To cut short, I was having fun awhile the urine sample process that leads me to Dang Wangi Police Station at the same day. Of course, my urine was positive...
Two tumbs up!! to police team that came and arresting us..
They acted very professional and treat us very nice..
Awhile waiting for the report statements and some procedures, they even offer us some drinks and foods as the whole process took us almost 4 hours...

In between that, i had learnt something that this experience somehow is very good for me as I am dealing with AADK - Agensi Anti-Dadah Kebangsaan .. Yeah, it is very right that I am involved in Drug Campaign...

Deep in my heart, I thanked to Allah for giving me this opportunity as guilty person which now I understand the whole process and impact to your rest of life when you lets yourself to get involved with drug...

Of course, my record is bad... that is part of the risks that i am taking up.. But, i deserves all this coz I AM TAKING DRUG...

My urine result (after your urine is positive on drug, police shall conducts a lab test on the same urine to identify either it is positive on illegal substances as outline by law) not yet ready.

What if I am positive on drug... same question that i was asking to one of police officer..
1) Police shall make a formal accusition against you
2) You need to pay a bail - RM 3,000 or if you fail to post that bail, you will be taken to Sungai Buloh Jail till date of hearing
3) You need to attend court hearing, you may appoints lawyer to represent you
4) Judge will ask you if you are guilty or not... Only if you are really not taking drug, then plead not guilty otherwise you just make your life in deep problems as that policemen said that once you not admitting thing that you had done or YOU LIE, investigation officer shall fight back the case and it could leads to long length of trial
5) OK, if you are guilty... so you are given a chance to make your appeal coz the fine is very EXPENSIVE .... maximum fines for drug abuse is RM 10,000
6) So, you paid your fine and you are a free man.. otherwise, you will serves in jail for certain time instructed by judge..
7) Then, investigation officer will make a report or recommendation to judge that... YOU MUST REPORT YOURSELF TO NEAREST POLICE STATION FOR 2 YEARS!!! why... coz you are guilty and must report yourself to nearest police station every month for period of 2 years for urine test

Wow!! Am i ready for that... To be honest I AM NOT
I don't have RM 3,000 to post my own bail
Even if i do have, in next 2 years, i am stuck in KL

Deep in my heart, I am praying to ALLAH that i really wish that my result is negative...
I had learnt my lesson... that i am sharing to everyone from then and now....

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

PPKDN


I was born in Tanah Merah, Kelantan...
Am i pro Kelantan.. or
Pusat Pembangunan Dan Kecemerlangan Darul Naim (PPKDN) is my baby... A company that i owned... A company that has great vision and mission...
When I first started to set up this compay, many of my friends and clients said that I am crazy.... an ant to kills tiger
PPKDN is a centre that to promote education, economic, social and tourism in Kelantan. It means, PPKDN is out to shake Kelantan community to be more focus, dynamic and competitive as well as to promote Kelantan as upcoming develop state.....
PPKDN running expenses reach 10K a month!!
Income ???? so far ZERO after been in operation since April 2007
Project?
PPKDN has completed some projects that I can be proud of
PPKD has indirectly change the mentality of Kelantan youths on education opportunities and skills... AADK Negeri Kelantan has offers PPKDN to become their program partner... and many more... but all of them are CHARITY PROJECT OF PPKDN!!

Last night, was a milestones for PPKDN perhaps!
I was offering new business partners to be part of the team....
To save PPKDN from it situation..

New projects are line-up after Raya..
No more charity projects
No more to pleased any of distiguished politicians

Watch out PPKDN projects at http://www.ppkdn.com.my/

Stress but acceptable

Hari Raya just around the corner yet so many thing happened past days. Managing 2 companies seems to be "wow" and something to be proud of. Honestly, it is not as what other people thinks. Sometimes, what actually life means to us. Does money really matters or only those who born in so-called comfortable family actually can be a boss at their own.

In past months till today, i have quarrel with my boyfriend on what i have been doing and fighting for. My KL company - nuKLuez Associates is not doing well, whereby Kelantan company - Pusat Pembangunan Dan Kecemerlangan Darul Naim (PPKDN) is really need HELP.

In all, I responsible for 5 young bloods that depending on me. For them to celebrate Hari Raya. I have tried and place myself at the best position to ensure that everybody will get their portions.

Maybe, in this life I have done so many sins to God. Been fasting less than 10 days. Got severe allegic reactions. My clients are playing with their cheque book....

Been flying in and out from KL to Kota Bharu almost every week for past 3 months. Sometimes, I have been thinking on what i have done in my life that i deserve all this stress.

Not been working out in gym for more than 4 months. Even my beloved cat (Sharky) missed me lots. Hardly contacts my parent coz not in mood in making any conversation with them.

Today, yes I am in KB but later at night, I am flying back to KL. Of course to be with my love and my cat. I am physically happy but my mind all on problems ... problems... problems...

Today meeting was good. But no Raya money......
My staff salary is pending...
My supplier money also pending....

Maybe, because of I am not respecting my creator - Allah S.W.T ... that all these lessons crash on me.... Am i strong? I am strong ... and always be strong

Tommorrow is my last day to fight for my staff - their salary and raya money
May Allah give me strength and luck..